all of my medical problems have ended with a big shrug. tests didnt seem to reveal anything, the course of steroids saved me from being trapped in the pain dimension, and im slowly starting to feel like a human being again. it's a "wait and see" kind of thing.

i will be putting more thought into it but ill be planning a longer break for myself in the nearish (but not really) future. it will be after this chapter ends (SO CLOSE.....) and i will need to think of what i can do in the meanwhile to convince you guys im coming back and didnt forget about maxine. i just need to like. catch up on other things so im not a seething ball of guilt. and then i need to take a real vacation after 10 years. but i also need to make money. much to think about.

well, i dont have to decide anything yet. on the mend. feeling better. thanks for being chill about whatever the hell that was