starting to speed up behind the scenes. like, my brain/body are entering a period of cooperation ive been trying to take advantage of. it's only been 2 days but its soooo good to feel like i can do something again. it was really awful there for like a week straight where i just could not do anything but the barest minimum. and the whole time its happening im thinking "oh great. im going to be like this forever. this is the trajectory of my life". but then it was ok for a while.

right now my biggest hurdle is the wedding. if i can get this shit dealt with right now i wont have to think about it the entire time leading up to the event. and that would be a Dream. its just a very...very stressful and slow process. but it is going.

i finally finished a page monday that i liked for the first time in a long time. we aren't "back" yet (im chewing through my buffer big time) but i'm relieved that there's improvement happening.

still tapering off my wellbutrin, which i suspect is the culprit when it comes to the art/writing block. i think the taper itself is making my brain sputter and lurch. this process is a lot shorter than the effexor and a lot less annoying, but presents now and annoying challenges.

thanks for reading! i want to get back to making things without it being a hassle. thank you all for being real ones while i slog my way through this

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